Cortex

My legs go jelly when I think of you,
You own my mind and thoughts,
Daily,
Ultradaily
Fascinated by your departure
Lured by your energy
The heart of a sadist,
I dwell on
What could have been
What should have been
What if it had been
What
If
accompanied by hopeless scenarios
A time machine,
Yes,
Thats what I need
To take me back to fictional moments
That linger in my cortex
So human of me, I know.
I feel your pain more than I feel my own
I sense your presence, months apart
I want what I cant have
And I want you.